I have. Literally....and figuratively.
This is one of the most beautiful photos I think I have ever seen! A rare complete rainbow. A double rainbow. The inspiring single tree. The brilliant light. The road. The small glimpses of a blue sky in the background. The incredible symemetry of the colors.
I am so inspired by rainbows! This blog is about the inspirations and life lessons that shape me...and Cellar Designs. So I just want to share with you some of my thoughts, musings and lessons that I take from rainbows.
In the photo above I am so intrigued by the light that seems to be concentrated under the rainbow. I love the gorgeous light that is cast on the tops of the trees branches. The rest of the sky is dark but under the rainbow it is bright. The road is also dark until it reaches the light of the rainbow. I also fascinated by the fact that the red in the first rainbow is on the outside but the red on the second is on the inside. I think it is incredible that this beautiful natural phenomenon is right in the midst of stormy clouds.
For some of you this peaks your scientific yearnings. Me too... But, for me more than science, this touches my spiritual core. I look at a rainbow and see God. I see the things He wants me to learn, see, realize and know.
I feel like that tree sometimes. Alone, isolated, yet strong and enduring with numerous branches outstretched toward the warmth of light. I see the wonders of the reflective colors and think that it is God's way of saying "I am the first rainbow and you are a reflection of me." I think that sometimes things in life seem like a bit of a storm but the gift of a rainbow is the assurance of safety and the hope that is ahead.
I had an unexpected rainbow in my life. His name is Noah.
It was late April of 2004. I was 37 years old. I had 3 great kids. Zack was turning the corner to teenage years, Taylor was 9 and Luke was almost 3. It had not been easy conceiving Luke and needed a bit of assistance from great docs. I had been told we were done having children and I was fine with that! We were done with diapers. We had given away our baby stuff...the crib, strollers, carseats and clothes. I was starting to dream of going back to school. I was wanting to get my degree...finally. I was leaning toward something that would land me, one day, a job as a high school guidance counselor.
Then I found myself sitting on the kitchen floor, leaning up against island... crying and holding a pregnancy test. I was pregnant. Are you kidding me? Really? How could I be pregnant? It is medically impossible! My body wasn't equipped and able to concieve any more. We were done. I had plans. 4 kids?! What is Craig going to say? Oh my.........
Those feelings lasted just a few days. I had a choice. I could continue to be bummed by this unplanned pregnancy. I could keep on crying. OR..... I could embrace it. I could be thankful for the gift. I could try to find the lesson in it. I could be grateful.
Fast forward to today....
It is late March 2012. I am 44 years old. I have 4 perfectly imperfect children that drive me crazy, make me beam with pride and humble me daily. Zack is 20, Taylor is 16, Luke is almost 11 and Noah is 7. We have, once again, given away all the baby stuff. I didn't go back to school. I am content with my Master's degree in Mothering! (some of my grades were not the best, but I learned alot!) The new dream that replaced the old one, of a business, has been realized. I didn't need to find a job as a high school guidance counselor because I have found more joy and purpose in serving and leading in our church's high school ministry. Every Wednesday night a large group of the most amazing teens come to our house and hang out.
I am very grateful. Noah Scott was that unexpected rainbow.
I felt like I was in the midst of a big storm that spring day in 2004. As those storm clouds lifted I found strength in the light.... faith in the mirror image of the rainbow's colors..... and the promise that the road ahead would be illuminated.
Rarely do I get to make a sign in rainbow colors...but here are two of my favorites.
Noah is an unexpected rainbow...every day! A few weeks ago he made a necklace at school. They were "friendship necklaces". Each color bead meant a different thing and then they got to pick the animal for the center. Each animal had a different meaning. Noah picked the dolphin but said he was torn between that and the elephant or turtle. The dolphin represents "playfulness, kindess, & friendship". He loves his necklace. It is perfect for him... he is a spirited playful guy who has a sweet, kind heart and has not met a person he wouldn't become friends with!
Thank God he was born.
May you happen upon a rainbow one day soon.
May you stand in awe at its beauty.
May it stop you in your tracks and make you think about big stuff.
May it provide a warmth and a light for your life.